I just don't know.
I just really don't know.
hey remember that time you sang me to sleep?
where'd that guy go?
so it's bright eyes and sky watching.
I'm alright with that.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
what pretty thoughts you have.
SO! Lets talk about me, huh? Hm.
I've been a hermit.
To the point where everyone this weeks has been asking where I have been.
It's sad but I have been here, home, doing my own thing.
I've been hoping I get this job and that I do well at the interview tommorow.
That I get money soon.
& I don't know, that things keep going well.
Sometimes I think about time.
If I keep living day to day, Andrew and I will always exist.
I mean isnt that it?
don't plan ahead too far, have at least 5 inside jokes (at least one must occur a day in which the two datees are in stitches about or at least exchange knowing smiles.) and don't be too mean.
Everything else is just fluff or common sense.
I'm happy, promise.
Well, I'm off to clean my room and listen to Cursive.
I've been a hermit.
To the point where everyone this weeks has been asking where I have been.
It's sad but I have been here, home, doing my own thing.
I've been hoping I get this job and that I do well at the interview tommorow.
That I get money soon.
& I don't know, that things keep going well.
Sometimes I think about time.
If I keep living day to day, Andrew and I will always exist.
I mean isnt that it?
don't plan ahead too far, have at least 5 inside jokes (at least one must occur a day in which the two datees are in stitches about or at least exchange knowing smiles.) and don't be too mean.
Everything else is just fluff or common sense.
I'm happy, promise.
Well, I'm off to clean my room and listen to Cursive.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
andrEW
1.
Where did you meet?
I was surfing the internet one night, looking for some bitties. I came across this terrifically emo looking boy and read his profile which made me even more interested in him. We spent a couple hours talking online and then one night he offered to keep me company while I was oh so lonely at home. It was completely awkward and cute in a 15 year old way.
BUT when he left, I felt even more lonely than before he had come.
2.
What was the first thought that went through in your head when you met?
what lovely blue eyes you have, what a sweet smile.
3.
Do you remember what he/she was wearing?
this impossible red shirt.
4.
Where was the first time you kissed this person?
we were sitting on the couch watching americas funniest home videos.
he snuck a kiss and I didn't mind at all. :)
5.
How did he/she ask you out?
I get a text about how we should make 'us' official and how facebook would be the place to do so. He told me we could wait as long as I wanted but I didn't want to wait at all. So, we were all hearted up on facebook within minutes.
6.
Where did you go for your first date?
We went shopping and then got dinner. We held hands across the table and made small talk.
7.
How long did you know this person before you became a couple?
weeks.
8.
Has this person ever proposed to you?
lmao. he did the old 'bend down on one knee annnnnnnnnnnnnd then tie your shoe"
9.
Do you and this person have kids together?
negative.
10.
Have you ever broken the law with this person?
Possibly.
12.
Do you get along with any of the ex's of your partner?
we've currently had no ex drama, sooo as far as Im concerned nothing matters if it didn't last.
13.
Do you trust this person?
with my heart.
14.
Do you see your partner in your future?
mmmmhm.
15.
Whats the most expensive thing this person has given you?
erm, this amazing hoodie. :)
16.
What is one thing he/she does that gets on your nerves?
he does this homo voice.
it makes me so mad!
17.
What is the thing you do that gets on his/her nerves?
I'm crazy as hell.
18.
Where do you see each other in 15 years from now?
we'll see. no one predicts time. but I'd like it if he was the one sleeping next to me.
19.
Do you get along with each others friends?
lmao.
Where
I was surfing the internet one night, looking for some bitties. I came across this terrifically emo looking boy and read his profile which made me even more interested in him. We spent a couple hours talking online and then one night he offered to keep me company while I was oh so lonely at home. It was completely awkward and cute in a 15 year old way.
BUT when he left, I felt even more lonely than before he had come.
2.
What was the first
what lovely blue eyes you have, what a sweet smile.
3.
Do you remem
this impossible red shirt.
4.
Where
we were sitting on the couch watching americas funniest home videos.
he snuck a kiss and I didn't mind at all. :)
5.
How did he/she ask you out?
I get a text about how we should make 'us' official and how facebook would be the place to do so. He told me we could wait as long as I wanted but I didn't want to wait at all. So, we were all hearted up on facebook within minutes.
6.
Where
We went shopping and then got dinner. We held hands across the table and made small talk.
7.
How long did you know this perso
weeks.
8.
Has this perso
lmao. he did the old 'bend down on one knee annnnnnnnnnnnnd then tie your shoe"
9.
Do you and this perso
negative.
10.
Have you ever broke
Possibly.
12.
Do you get along
we've currently had no ex drama, sooo as far as Im concerned nothing matters if it didn't last.
13.
Do you trust
with my heart.
14.
Do you see your partn
mmmmhm.
15.
Whats
erm, this amazing hoodie. :)
16.
What is one thing
he does this homo voice.
it makes me so mad!
17.
What is the thing
I'm crazy as hell.
18.
Where
we'll see. no one predicts time. but I'd like it if he was the one sleeping next to me.
19.
Do you get along
lmao.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
:/
a short poem.
you used to be a kite
now you're a brick under a house
the easy ways
the easy days
have all blown right out
so mister kite, I see your plight
but why become a brick?
the weight must hurt
the taste of dirt
must make you sick
Id give anything to see the wind
pick you up and make you light
but to fly again
you can't be so burdened
you've got to be a kite.
you used to be a kite
now you're a brick under a house
the easy ways
the easy days
have all blown right out
so mister kite, I see your plight
but why become a brick?
the weight must hurt
the taste of dirt
must make you sick
Id give anything to see the wind
pick you up and make you light
but to fly again
you can't be so burdened
you've got to be a kite.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Another Survey NO SUBSTANCE!
Say your last old flame runs up to you and hugs you, what do you do?
I'm not so sure I'd know what to do. I mean, I thought I had found someone who was too much like me to ever break me down. Annnnnnnd I was wrong, to the max. So, if Tim ever came up and hugged me, I'd be frozen with confusion but I'm sure I'd push him off with some sort of horrible string of words to save face. What a terrible question to begin with, shame on you survey.
Last person who texted you?
It was Belinda, telling me that she had no money because I wanted to go to The Garment District. I still wanna go, maybe tonight?
Last time you fell?
The other day when I was talking to Belinda about bills.
How do you pronounce your name?
Tah TEA AHH NUH, maybe if my mother had spelled it like that so many people would get it right.
Who was the last person you hung out with?
Andrew slept over last night and this morning we pretended he was a very old man with a need for Cialis and had achy joints. I love him more than anyone could ever know.
Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Andrew Possumface.
If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
Im not sure, children are a handful.
Is there someone you know you should hate but you can't?
hate is a strong word, I know some people that do not deserve my respect.
Do you wear eyeliner?
Some days, I feel like it's just not so cool to be made up. Some days.
Do you write notes on your hand?
I really try not to. Your skin breathes people, it's your largest organ, you wouldnt write on your liver!
Do you have a best friend?
I could start a fight and win.
State three things you'd like to say to people:
1. I wish I would have said no.
2. I hope you get everything you work for.
3. Pray for me?
How many pillows do you sleep with?
3.
If you're being extremely quiet, what does that mean?
I'm either sad or a mixture of emotions that might provoke me to start some shit.
Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
PLEASE, I have done so much realizing these past few weeks that allow me to see how much of a wonderful woman I am to my lovers and my friends. So, when you're sorry, and one day you will be, I wish you all the best. And hope that you drop softly and it don't end too badly, and your raging head can finally rest. You can be honest and rescue yourself, but I'll walk my own road. I'll go where you won't go, you won't put me through hell.Cause now I see through you, believe what you need to. Go haunt someone else.
Have you ever had a thumb war?
I'd like to state now that I cheat at all thumb wars and that if I win I must have cheated or used some sleight of hand trick.
Do you care what people think about you?
Only when they're wrong.
Do you think you are a good person?
could be better.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
oh of course!
What's your favorite thing about Sundays?
LAZY SUN IN MY WINDOW :)
What are you wearing on your feet?
not a thing, which reminds me that I wanna get some slippers.
Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
SI!
If you were AT a reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
a little girl with high confidence and a pretty face.
Where was the FIRST TIME you ever saw the person you like at the moment?
Walking down the street in a sweet manner.
Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
Oh, let it be.
Do long distance relationships work?
Everyone ends up cheating. It's been proven. Long Distance just means that your heart breaks at a faster rate and that your morals shake off quicker.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
I'm sure of it.
Who's the funniest person you know?
this nigga rob.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
HAHAHAHAAHAH no way!
I'm not so sure I'd know what to do. I mean, I thought I had found someone who was too much like me to ever break me down. Annnnnnnd I was wrong, to the max. So, if Tim ever came up and hugged me, I'd be frozen with confusion but I'm sure I'd push him off with some sort of horrible string of words to save face. What a terrible question to begin with, shame on you survey.
Last perso
It was Belinda, telling me that she had no money because I wanted to go to The Garment District. I still wanna go, maybe tonight?
Last time you fell?
The other day when I was talking to Belinda about bills.
How do you prono
Tah TEA AHH NUH, maybe if my mother had spelled it like that so many people would get it right.
Who was the last perso
Andrew slept over last night and this morning we pretended he was a very old man with a need for Cialis and had achy joints. I love him more than anyone could ever know.
Who was the last perso
Andrew Possumface.
If you found
Im not sure, children are a handful.
Is there
hate is a strong word, I know some people that do not deserve my respect.
Do you wear eyeli
Some days, I feel like it's just not so cool to be made up. Some days.
Do you write
I really try not to. Your skin breathes people, it's your largest organ, you wouldnt write on your liver!
Do you have a best frien
I could start a fight and win.
State
1. I wish I would have said no.
2. I hope you get everything you work for.
3. Pray for me?
How many pillo
3.
If you're being
I'm either sad or a mixture of emotions that might provoke me to start some shit.
Do you think
PLEASE, I have done so much realizing these past few weeks that allow me to see how much of a wonderful woman I am to my lovers and my friends. So,
Have you ever had a thumb
I'd like to state now that I cheat at all thumb wars and that if I win I must have cheated or used some sleight of hand trick.
Do you care what peopl
Only when they're wrong.
Do you think
could be better.
Is there
oh of course!
What'
LAZY SUN IN MY WINDOW :)
What are you weari
not a thing, which reminds me that I wanna get some slippers.
Have you ever had a reall
SI!
If you were AT a reaso
a little girl with high confidence and a pretty face.
Where
Walking down the street in a sweet manner.
Is there
Oh, let it be.
Do long dista
Everyone ends up cheating. It's been proven. Long Distance just means that your heart breaks at a faster rate and that your morals shake off quicker.
Do you think
I'm sure of it.
Who's the funni
this nigga rob.
Could
HAHAHAHAAHAH no way!
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Friday, October 17, 2008
don't look back, don't look back
I'm proud to say, made it through my first night alone. Thank you, thank you.
hhahahaahahahah, It's so hard to fall asleep alone now. I had to do a million different things in order to tucker myself out. Activities included:
Porn.
Walking with luke to Bank of America & back.
Walking back to Tedeshi's to get a BCP and then back home.
More Porn.
Fighting with Penelope.
Calling my mother.
Painting my toes.
Painting my nails.
Taking a bubble bath.
Making a new playlist.
Downloading Padriac My Prince ALL NIGHT.
Finally my eyes got heavy and I took myself to sleep. Then I got woken up by jack hammers and this burst of light shining in through my window.
I know, that Andrew has a life, and responsibilities. I have recently become so needy it's disgusting. I love the kid but I need to give him more space or you know, give myself some. Although, last night sucked to the max, I guess I could handle a night off if I knew it was coming. but then that's not very fair. I think I'm going to help pay for the tickets he gets, he only gets them because he wants to see me. And thats beautiful, in a horribly financial way.
So, I also need to get the fucking mail box open or something. Or I will be forever fucked. REDIC. I need to get stuff done.
<3ha, take it easy.
hhahahaahahahah, It's so hard to fall asleep alone now. I had to do a million different things in order to tucker myself out. Activities included:
Porn.
Walking with luke to Bank of America & back.
Walking back to Tedeshi's to get a BCP and then back home.
More Porn.
Fighting with Penelope.
Calling my mother.
Painting my toes.
Painting my nails.
Taking a bubble bath.
Making a new playlist.
Downloading Padriac My Prince ALL NIGHT.
Finally my eyes got heavy and I took myself to sleep. Then I got woken up by jack hammers and this burst of light shining in through my window.
I know, that Andrew has a life, and responsibilities. I have recently become so needy it's disgusting. I love the kid but I need to give him more space or you know, give myself some. Although, last night sucked to the max, I guess I could handle a night off if I knew it was coming. but then that's not very fair. I think I'm going to help pay for the tickets he gets, he only gets them because he wants to see me. And thats beautiful, in a horribly financial way.
So, I also need to get the fucking mail box open or something. Or I will be forever fucked. REDIC. I need to get stuff done.
<3ha, take it easy.
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