we're here.

I laid my eyes on you, your little stupid smile, my nervous primping.
HEY! REMEMBER DISNEY SCENE IT?!
I had played earlier...alone, so I knew all of the answers.
whispering; hey remember our first kiss? you leaned in, I leaned in, magic.
I scooped up your hand only minutes earlier, and I thought HE COULD BE A FUCKING HAND MODEL.
but I didn't want to say, so I smiled.
so many emotions transcribed in smiles.
I could have spoke forever if you'd just read my grin.
whispering some more; he remember when your car was towed and we laid together for the first time?
you've always been warmer than me, and longer.
your arms holding me so tight, I could feel your heart beating against mine and it sounded like, drums.
months after, I'd do anything to tussle your curls at the end of the night when your eyes we're wide with excitement and all you did was laugh and grab me so I'd be closer to you.




you used to sing to me.

you used to get so excited to see me.

we used to be happy, right?




now I just hope we don't fight or that I don't tune you out by accident.

the holes in my wall make me sad, this is a permanent reminder that this caught fire.

there's no sweeping it under the bed or deleting necessary nor possible.

the proof will be there long after the new non matching paint dries.




I miss my blog. I miss my possum. I miss days where you'd text me all day because you missed me. I just, miss.




bright eyes, sleep, fidgeting with myself.