don't look back, don't look back

I'm proud to say, made it through my first night alone. Thank you, thank you.
hhahahaahahahah, It's so hard to fall asleep alone now. I had to do a million different things in order to tucker myself out. Activities included:

Porn.
Walking with luke to Bank of America & back.
Walking back to Tedeshi's to get a BCP and then back home.
More Porn.
Fighting with Penelope.
Calling my mother.
Painting my toes.
Painting my nails.
Taking a bubble bath.
Making a new playlist.
Downloading Padriac My Prince ALL NIGHT.


Finally my eyes got heavy and I took myself to sleep. Then I got woken up by jack hammers and this burst of light shining in through my window.

I know, that Andrew has a life, and responsibilities. I have recently become so needy it's disgusting. I love the kid but I need to give him more space or you know, give myself some. Although, last night sucked to the max, I guess I could handle a night off if I knew it was coming. but then that's not very fair. I think I'm going to help pay for the tickets he gets, he only gets them because he wants to see me. And thats beautiful, in a horribly financial way.

So, I also need to get the fucking mail box open or something. Or I will be forever fucked. REDIC. I need to get stuff done.

<3ha, take it easy.